Growing up

Your first christmas was this year... and you had so much fun... <3 We love you sweet boy... Its hard to believe that you are already growing so much. I love you sweet boy. Your daddy loves you, your big brother loves you. We just adore you so very much <3
Below are some of the pictures from the last couple months here <3 since I wrote last

Daddy and you at christmas

Daddy and you cuddling

Mommy and you cuddling

Brother and you playing

Brother's christmas picture

You're crhistmas picture. 

You are officially 5 months old today... and you have found your way into so many hearts. It has been amazing. So many giggles and smiles... cuddles and growth. Your sitting up for about 20 seconds by yourself (except when you have a tummy bubble) you love apple juice and your stuffed animals. I can't help but wonder what your first word will be, with how much you are babbling.  We adore you baby. We celebrated your first christmas early cuz that was the day I had off.  Ill show you some pictures <3

You and your brother are just becoming best friends <3 its amazing and adorable. I love to watch you play... being here with you both... but alas mommy still has to work. <3 Here are pictures of you and brother playing <3  I don't know if I could explain to you how much you  have helped your bubah <3 he is talking more now then ever... and its mostly about you. We all love you Kaiden Wyatt

I hope you never doubt that.

My little moon.

My dear little moon,

I love you. You know why mommy calls you her moon? Because, even though you keep me up half the night still, and your 4 months old, you are the light of my night.  You keep me up, and hold my heart. You and your bother both. You have gotten so big. Two days ago, you turned 4 months. You tried your first potatoes for thanks giving.   I love you. I love you so much. Me your daddy, your brother, we all love you. Your little laugh... your sweet sheepish smile. Your giggles, your big eyes. Your simply amazing.  I can only hope you know how much we all love you. Even your big brother. He is 2 years old and already adores you.

You are so sweet... so pure... and so loved. Below are your christmas pictures (after all its end of november).

Mommy

My boy, My beautiful second son

Mommy and you <3 

I love you so much, I know mommy is gone a lot... but it is solely because I want to care for you. I want you to have an amazing life Kaiden Wyatt, you and your brother. You could never know how much it means to me when I come home... and all you want is to be held by me.... to just look at me...
You sat there cheerfully for 3 hours today. Just staring at me and smiling. Now your sleeping... sweetly and soundly. I love you so much my son. Your going to grow up to be happy. I could not love you more my dear. I miss you when I work. So very much. I love watching your grow. Watching your smiles... your only 6 weeks old tomorrow. So happy... such a big smile. We love you Kaiden, your father, myself, your brother. You are all my reasons <3 I adore you beautiful boys. I adore you both <3
All my love. Be good for your father.

To my boys,

I want you to know that mommy could not be happier right now. Mommy loves you both so much its crazy.
I love holding you, Kaiden Wyatt, I love listening to you coo, watching your crazy facial expressions you make (your much more animated then your brother ever was). I love knowing your ok when you wake me in the middle of the night. As frustrating as it can be to be woken every 3-4 hours, and never really get a full night sleep... knowing your ok, when i hear that cry... is one of the best feelings in the world. Its every mothers fear to loose their children. SIDS is a terrifying phenomenon and just hearing you cry, makes mommy happy to know your ok.  I love rubbing your little head of hair, holding your little hands, and watching you stare at the world in wonder. I love that you have so easily become part of this family.

I love watching you play Jairmie William. I love seeing your bright smile, when your so happy its almost infectious. I love hearing your squeals watching you learn. I love moments of quiet with you. I love when you run up to me and all you want is to hug mommy.  I love that you have gotten so much better, and have not had a seizure in months. I love watching you spin around in circles in the living room and watching you dance. I love taking you out to the swings to play... hearing you giggle so happily. I love how you know where home is. I love how fearless you are, though if I'm to be completely honest it puts the fear of god in me as well. What kind of trouble are you going to get yourself into over the next 17 years 0.o <3  I love how you, though you may never know it, make me and daddy a family. And now you are making an awesome big brother.

If I could freeze time, I would. I love being home with you both, playing, singing, holding you. Goin on adventures (you both see the world with aww and wonder). But mommy can't be home with you like this forever. Mommy within the next couple weeks is going to have to go back to work. Mommy likes her job, and cares about the people she works with. Mommy is makin a difference in the lives of people who sometimes don't have anyone every day. Mommy likes that. But because mommy is selfish if she had her way, and we could live on it financially, would love to be home all day with you boys and daddy. Mommy knows how much she misses you, Jairmie, when she is gone, and how much she will miss you when she goes back to work, Kaiden. Mommy is doing good things when she works, caring for people who can't care for themselves, but mommy misses you guys anytime she is not home. It makes mommy sad to think of all the giggles I'm missing, all the memories, when I am gone. How much ill miss with kaiden is especially a sad subject for mommy. Mommy saw all your firsts Jairmie, your first smile, your first step, your first words, when you first stood up, your first dance moves, the list goes on. It makes mommy sad to think she may even miss one of those with Kaiden. But know that no matter what new exciting things you 2 do when mommy is gone... mommy is there with you in spirit.

I am so proud to call you boys mine. I love you both fiercely. Never doubt that. Mommy and daddy both love you fiercely. We love each other unendingly. We are a family. As long as we are together, its home. Mommy loves you both <3

Welcome to our world baby

You were born a week and a half ago, and mommy is just now finding time to tell you how much that means to me.

On July 22, 2012 mommy went to the hospital, scared because her blood pressure was so high.  Mommy thought that they were just going to give her medicine and send her home, but that is not how it worked. They told mommy at 3 am that her and daddy were going to have you. Mommy was terrified because they told her that she had a sickness called preclampsia, which she was told could have made you very sick. It took mommy a few minutes to digest the idea that we were going to have you. Never the less, things went quickly, and at 5:50 am on July 23 we welcomed you into the world. You weighed 8lbs 2.9oz and were 19.5 inches long <3 You were perfect, even your daddy said so <3 when you were born, you brought tears to mommy and daddy's eyes.

The healing has been harder for mommy this time, but your worth it. We are sad that your sick right now <3 but you will be ok <3 Your big brother adores you, I just hope he you are this close later.

You have bright red hair and beautiful blue eyes. You look a lot more like your daddy then mommy, but thats ok.

Mommy always wanted a daughter, but i have to tell you, you being here, with your brother, it is the way things are supposed to be. We are supposed to have you and your big brother and we know that. We feel so very blessed <3 We love you Kaiden Wyatt, I hope you know that when your older <3

My youngest baby boy,
I love you so much. Its hard to believe that 6 months ago we found out we were having you <3 We cannot believe that in a matter of months you will be here with us, in our arms. Its amazing to me. You are so loved Kaiden, so very very loved. I hope you and your brother, and any other siblings you may one day will be close. I hope that I can teach little Jairmie to be a good big brother, to love you unconditionally and to always support you, and of course to tease you moderately. I keep wondering what your going to look like... what your first words will be. How little Jairmie will adjust to you. I am worried that you or your brother will feel like we love one or the other more, which simply will not be true, but mostly I am excited to meet you. Your brother is growing so quickly, he can climb stairs, and identify objects and is learning more and more every day. Maybe he will be able to teach you too <3  Either way, in 2 months you will be here in our arms <3 We love you!
Mommy

My youngest son,

your active now, and always moving around. I love knowing your ok. I am 25 weeks pregnant with you which is a big deal because now i know that if anything should happen, and you have to come early, you have a fighting chance at life. I love you so much already, words could not even explain it. Day by day things are the same. I get up with your big brother, make him breakfast, lie down while he eats, take him for a walk or to the park, make him lunch, lay him down for bed, clean up, when he wakes up I get him a snack, we play and watch land before time, and then he eats dinner. We go for a walk and its bedtime again. I know this will change when you come. I hope your happy love, a happy little boy. I hope that I can learn to be a mommy of 2 quickly, so i can be an awesome mommy by the time your old enough to remember things. Right now we are trying so hard to figure out how we are gonna get the things you need. We were so blessed by one of mommys old foster parents, who sent us a full box of clothes for you so now we have enough of those <3 everything else will come in due time, i have faith in that <3 You are so loved little Kaiden. So very very loved. You are going to be so special too, just like your brother. Daddy chose your first name, Kaiden, it means courageous friend. I chose Wyatt though, it is so true of you. Wyatt means twice blessed, which we have been, blessed with you two beautiful boys when mommy was always told that we would never have kids of our own. I hope you know how love you are, how special you are. We can't wait to meet you my love, I so hope your grandma lewis can make it for your birth as well. It means so much to me <3

I love you little one,
Mommy

My dearest new son

Kaiden Wyatt French, that is your name!
My dearest little one, we found out recently that you are a boy! Your big brother can already say you name... or gets really close. Little Jairmie calls you K-en or Bobby(baby) K. Me and your daddy are so excited to meet you. Last night, your daddy felt your move for the first time! Your a lot more active then Jairmie was... so we felt you move a lot earlier... only 20 weeks along! We are so excited to meet you, but a bit worried, just because we really want you and your brother both to feel so very very loved. <3 I am sure though that we will all adjust very quickly and that little Jairmie will love being your big brother as much as we will love being your mommy and daddy! We cant wait to meet you, to know your eyes, your smile, to hear you laugh, watch you take your first steps, or jump like your big brother has learned to! it will be a fun exciting adventure my little love <3 we cant wait!
I love you my small one!
Mommy