My sweet little one

I have not been able to write in a while... momas been so busy. But i found a little time and i wanted to write you today. You my sweet boy are the most cheerful, energetic, bubbily, squeely, cuddily and easy going child I have ever me. Jairmie wants your toy? Ok, you can have it. Mommy wants to practice talking... ok lets do it. Mommy wants to put you in your crib for a lil bit while she cleans... thats cool mom. Daddy wants to hold you on his lap and play a game... thats ok Daddy! You have come leaps and bounds since your first birthday. Your sitting your self up, crawling, walking, standing in the middle of the room, and even starting to run. You can almost feed yourself (with a spoon you need someone to help you scoop). I am just so blessed to have you as my son. You walked into the bathroom the other day (courtisy of brother opening the door) and I look down at your little smiley face and your sweet lil cherrubb cheeks and I think "where did my baby go???" You are a rare blend of klingy (you loves your cuddles) exploritory, and just all around fun! We adore you! and your brothers quite fond of you too. Dont think anything of him knocking you over when you walk... thats just what brothers do, and dont worry, he will get time out EVERYTIME. Kaiden Wyatt french. I am so proud to call you mine. From the mimic of the MMMMM when i say MMMore? To the giggles at your favorite game ( the achoo game) you are just an amazing caring sweet child and I cant wait to watch you grow into who God would have you be! I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH Mommy

Your first steps

My dear sweet Kaiden, your 15 months old. I love your personality, so full of energy and life, so happy. You love music, love to shake-it as you sit on the floor. You have recently picked up two new words, Go, and shake. These go along with mom, dad, buba, kitty. And your signs, eat, all done, more, and bye-bye. We are praying your vocabulary continues to develop. You are taking your first brave steps towards being able to walk with the champs, 10-12 steps at a time. Mommy is very proud of you. I can see you growing into a hard headed giggily loving little man. You are so sweet. I hope I can be everything you need of me. I love you little Kaiden Wyatt, my beautiful second blessing. Your big smile, little giggles, endless cuddles, and big blue eyes brighten everyday. Love, Mommy

Today it hit me...

You are getting so big, and mommy so proud of you. You start to feed yourself it's not perfect it is getting better. You're getting closer to standing on your own I'm going to cry when you do K. I am so proud of you it's crazy I just wanted you to know that I am proud and I love you kk. Your my world, I'm so lucky to have you and your brother. Things are starting to get better! I love u k.

Lets talk about you

Your different then your big brother, from a parents standpoint. We are seeing you excel in areas that Jairmie is still catching up on. We love you both. But I want to tell you though, we don't have favorites. You are both so different. You are coming into your personality now. Your such a cuddle bug. Your giggles are endless. You will play alone but only after a little bit of protest at being sat down. Your beautiful. Well... Handsome i guess is more appropriate. You make us giggle and keep us on our toes. You move and move and move. You have started using a sippy like a champ. You are not like your brother. You will let him put anything anywhere not a care in the world. We love you so much. You are getting so big. Your climbing on and through things, and getting close to standing/walking on your own. I wanted you to k ow that we will be spending time on buggy a little more but please know we will do our very bests to be fair but never play favorites. You are so amazing and special. Never ever doubt that. I hope you know. I hope you soar my love. I hope we can help you achieve all your dreams. I hope you know how special you are now, and we can't wait to see what you will become! I am so in love with you. Your energy s your giggles. Your beautiful blue eyes, your just amazing. I can't put it into words. Therapy everyday for you to, learning to feed yourself, fine motor skills, ad words. We label everything. We are learning how to teach two boys. We are loving every minute of it. We are so proud of your progress. You have come leaps and bounds. It's our job to help you soar. Love you bunches my dear one, Mommy

Little kk

Hi sweet little boy. Mommy just wanted tell you she loves you so much. Things of been scary lately but I believe everything is going to be okay. I love you Kaiden Wyatt. I love you so much it's insane. You've grown so much you know know that her mommy gets out of the car because I work mommy going to be gone for a while and you reach for me and wave bye-bye with little tears in your eyes with a smile on your face. You make mommy so proud you are beautiful boy. You have grown so much. I'm so proud of you Kayden you've grown so much. I want you to know that I love you so much it's crazy. Things get hard sometimes but you and your brother moms reason to smile you're amazing and I wanted you to know that I love you and everything is going to be okay. Mommy can't wait to get home from work and hold you tonight. Give your daddy you brother and the kitty a hug for me lol I live for you boys. Your my purpose. And I'm proud to be ur mommy

I am one proud mommy

Dearest little Kaiden. Your 1year old. 2 weeks ago you could not sit yourself up, you could not crawl, you could not pull yourself to standing. Today you do all of those things. Daddy and mommy are so proud of you. We think you were just being a little hardheaded <3 Thats ok both mommy and daddy are stubborn. Your starting to dance now, starting to talk more (well babble). Your playing with your brother, and are so understanding of his hardships. You are not mean at all. You have made so much progress. Mommy wants you to know that I am so very very proud of you. Daddy says me too. Kaiden Wyatt French. Oh how well your name fits you. Courageous friend to your brother. You take so much from him (your our little tank...) he sits on you, he sometimes bites (trust me we are working on that, he bites us too). But through it all when you see him sad you still crawl on him and give him kaiden cuddles or drag over a block for him to play with. You truely are a courageous friend to your brother... and there is no doubt you are our second blessing, a new gift God bestowed on us. We are so proud of you. We cannot wait to see who you become. I love you Kaiden Wyatt. Daddy says he loves you too stink butt :D Rest well tonight. Mommy should probably Sleep. Mommy <3

What will you be when you grow up?

dearest little ones, Every parent wonders what their child will be when the grow up. Will they be a doctor? A lawyer? A business man? A fry cook? An artist? Will they be happy? Will they have good memories of their childhood? Will they have lots of friends? Will they know God? Will they love themselves? Will they have children? Will they make a difference? What comes of their lives? There are many questions. As of late ive been pondering that question over both of you. I have greater fear for you, Jairmie William, then for your brother. But yes... I have questions and fears for both of your futures. As a mom to a child with a significant and yet still unnamed disability, and a normal child my brain buzzes. How do you balance those boys? How do you make sure that they don't feel one is loved more... so first thing I want you to know... I litterally love you both the same, in very different ways. Jairmie William. I love you. I love your big bright smile... your compassion... your interest in the world. I love the way you have never met a person you dont like. I love the way you think your way through things. I love the way you love strange things and shun normal ones. I love the way you embrace your brother. I love the way you are a fighter, I love the way you try. Kaiden Wyatt. I love you. I love those big eyes and your huge smile. I love how at only 1 year old you know and accept that Jairmie cannot express himself as is normal. I love how when he kisses, then bites you, you cry and immediately reach out for a hug from him. I love how you are so social... how you already say moma. I love how you have advanced so much in so little time. I love how everything makes you laugh and how your only 2 fears are either a, being without a face, or b, sitting down without assistance when your standing. Now.. back to the previous topic. I worry. What mom doesnt? Will you both be happy? Will you be best friends? Will you understand eachother? Will you understand us? Will you know God? (insert the rest of the questions previously mentioned). Here is what I want you to know. Mommy can't tell the future. Mommy loves you both. Mommy has dreams for you of course. I want you to grow up, be happy, get married, have children, grow old, and die happy (long after me). But here is what I do know. I don't care who you love, as long as you love. I don't care what you do, as long as you love it. I dont care if you go to college, I care if you learn. I dont care if you fall, as long as you get up again. That means... if you want to be a fry cook, and that makes you happy, do it. If you want to fly to the moon... I DONT CARE WHAT STANDS IN YOUR WAY... get your degree... do your best and go to the moon. Mommy believes in you both. Mommy loves you both. I dont care who you love, and I know I wont always agree. I care for your choices. I dont want to see you have children out of wedlock, out of a real loving relationship. I care that you know God but know you will have to come to know him in your own way and time... i cant make that relationship for you. I pray you love people. I pray you know love. Wherever love brings you. I pray it brings you no pain... but know sometimes love brings pain, doesnt mean its not real. I pray you know how to treat others. That I can teach you compassion. What will you be when you grow up? I have no idea. But my hopes... Two happy, handsome, young men who know God, love others and accepts themselves. And when you grow up... you can always come back to mommy. I dont care if im in my 70's and your in your 50's come crawl on mommys lap... I will hold you. Kaiden Wyatt you listen to momma here ok. I pray and hope your brother will be able to read this one day, all of these, if not, please, read them to him. And know I love you both equally, just differently. I know your brother will take a little more time from our schedules one day, but he will never replace who you are in my heart. I love you both dearly. God bless you my boys... my dear sweet beautiful boys. Dont grow up too fast... and please... always let mommy love you, please, dont pull away from at least one hug a day. Live full long and happy lives... for you, and if thats not a good enough reason, for me <3

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My dear sweet Kaiden

My dear sweet Kaiden.... You have grown so much. Its so hard to believe your already a year old! You are a little delayed motor wise but thats ok... your figuring it out. We are so proud of you its crazy. Today you crawled so well. You are an attention hogging baby but thats ok... we love to look in those sweet little eyes at that sweet smile... and just be there with you. We are so proud of how far you have come. Its like out of no where... you go from non mobile to sitting up on your own, and almost full out crawling. We are very proud of you! I really hope you know how much we love you. How special you are to us and that you are so important. Your brother loves you so much... its so cute to see the two of you together. We are doing all we can to make you happy. We want you happy. Know you are so very loved.. and we... we are so very proud. <3 Love you, Mommy and Daddy (and Buggy)